As far back as I can remember, I believed in God. I thought that believing in God was what it took to be a Christian. (Later in life, I learned that even satan believes in God.) I didn't hear about Christ and His sacrifice until I was an adult. I wasn't in church like most people when I found out about salvation.

I had always been fascinated with the Charles Manson Murders. I watched Helter Skelter with horror as a teen, and wanted to know more about these people and how they could work such evil against others. So, when I stumbled across a book called Child of Satan/Child of God - written by Susan Atkins, Charles Manson's "main" woman, I eagerly began to read it.

The book began with Susan telling some about her childhood... it soon enough got into the details of how she was drawn into the Manson family and how she became willing to do anything for the sake of the leader, Charles. Although, I do not like gore, I was anxious to find out everything I could about Susan and Charles and the rest of the "family" members.

The book took an unexpected turn. Now you would have thought that the title was a dead giveaway (no pun intended), but I didn't understand until near the end of the book that this was Susan's own personal testimony of how she came to know Christ. Had I known, I may not have read the book. When I read of her faith in the Lord, and how she knows she is forgiven by God, I knew then that I was not a Christian at all!!  She shared with her readers that:  "All have sinned and come short of the glory of God "  (Romans 3:23).  I was a sinner and I knew it. She also shared that when we come to Christ, He cleans us white as snow ( Ps. 51:7, Isa. 1:8 )....He casts our sins behind His back (Isa. 53:6).... He blots them out (Isa.43:25)......And they are not mentioned again ( Ezek. 18:22; 33:16 ).  WOW! That is such a wonderful and loving promise!  As I thought about how Susan was assured of this promise for herself, I knew there was hope for me. If God could forgive a murderer, then God would surely forgive me!  I got on my knees at that very moment, all alone in my livingroom. I prayed for Christ to come into my life. I thanked Him that He sent His Son to die for me..."For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life."John 3:16

I asked God to forgive me of my sins, and He said:  "I already have." Thank you God! Thank you God for Susan Atkins and her testimony...for her willingness to share. Thank you God for saving Susan Atkins. Thank you Lord for saving me! Thank you Lord for an abundant life!

(If after reading this, you have any questions, please contact me and I'll be happy to help any way I can.)

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